it looks like i am crashing again. i can feel it happening. i know this time there is no use in talking to anyone about it. you cant tell friends how you feel cos they can't do anything about it. you tell a health proffessional then you shunt your around giving all kinds of useless advice. i am stuck and i don't know how to unstick myself. there's the rational bit that tells you to pull your socks up and get on with it, you don't have it that bad. but then there is the irrational that tells you what is the use of trying. and that is winning.
i am aimlessly wondering around. this cant continue for much longer.
